I Go Back...

I Go Back to memories, dreams, thoughts, and hopes. The title of this blog is from a song, one of my favorites, “I Go Back” by Kenny Chesney. Kenny is one of my all time favorite singers because I swear he reads my mind. Nearly every song he sings about I have lived, thought about or experienced, ONE way or another. “We all have a song that somehow stamped our lives, takes us to another place and time…” What’s yours? This song would be mine because the entire lyrics of the song embodies my life, one way or another. I am 21 yrs old, it may seem young to a lot of you folks, but really, it isn’t. That’s 21 WHOLE YEARS. For my age, that’s a very long time, yet it flew by in a blink of an eye.

For those familiar with my blog you see I went through a lot of my troubles and such. With my surgeries, hearing loss, verbal abuse about my choices in both the deaf and hearing world. That doesn’t matter anymore, I made it through and am better because of whom I am and the choices made. A lot of people usually have a eureka moment. I sort of had one today taking a walk around the campus at SIU-C here in Southern Illinois. I felt FREE. Independent. I was taking a role as a college student to do my own thing. It was like I was a Pilot, taking control of my aircraft (life) and taking off for the wild.

Walking around campus, it was a gorgeous day, near 60 degrees. The classroom I was supposed to go was right near a walk way so I decided to take a walk around and people watch and observe. I saw young couples in love, holding hands, making out in the corner. I saw people walking by on the I-Pod, ignoring the sounds of nature and people around them. I saw people roller blading through or riding a bike, nearly knocking someone over. But, that’s sort of the thrill of it; you never know what’s coming next.

“Suddenly this crazy world made more sense to me
Well I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along
Cause everytime I hear that song...”

The song “I Go Back” just popped in my head as I took a walk, enjoying the scenery of things like the picture above. I heard it in my head and by god just like the song, I couldn’t help but sing along. Making me think and go back to my thoughts, memories and dreams.

“I go back to a two toned short bed Chevy
Drivin my first love out to the levvy
Livin life with no sense of time
And I go back to the feel of a fifty yard line
A blanket, a girl, some raspberry wine
Wishin time would stop right in its tracks
Everytime I hear that song, I go back”

I think back, to when I got my first car, a 2002 ford Escort ZX2. Bought it during spring break, march of 2004. I was so happy, proud and excited. It was amazing. I also go back to when I went out with the first girl who actually LIKED ME?! WOW! We didn’t go to a levvy but we did meet at a church concert, and had a great time. It was during summer, and we really did have no sense of time. The summer just flew by. I wanted the summer keep moving and never stop, never turn into fall and the harsh winters.

‘After graduation and drinkin goodbye to friends
And I go back to watchin summer fade to fall
Growin up too fast and I do recall’

Graduation, oh man. Probably one of the best, yet saddest times of my year. 2005, my graduation year was so hard, such a struggle. I lost both my grandfathers, and lost one of my best friends, more so like a sister or 2^nd mother to me in July, after graduation. It was time to be an adult once I stepped off the stage, come graduation day. Enduring the final summer as a high school student. Attending summer set concerts here in my hometown, hanging with friends. Taking sip of alcohol when we knew we were not supposed too. Meeting other friends and then going to one of their friends house to go swim, hang out and stay up until 1:00am just chit chatting and thinking back. Man, I go back…growing up to fast really did happen.

‘And I go back to the loss of a real good friend
And the sixteen summers I shared with him
Now "Only The Good Die Young" stops me in my tracks
Everytime I hear that song,’

Like I said, I lost a good friend also, she was only 42 years old. So young, it is true sometimes it seems like, only the good DO die young. What does that say for us oldies?! *smirks*. She was truly a dear friend, and the time spent here on earth was nothing short of amazing and really made ya feel like you were her best friend.

My day uberly rocked!!! Work went by fast, I got my paper back and it was a B! WOO HOO! Then I found out one of my favorite actress, Vickie Lawerence is coming to town to do a show/presentation! I loved her from The Carol Burnett Show as well as Mamma's Family! Coming home from class my left hearing aid battery died, and It makes me terribly off balance with only one working hearing aid. What did I do? I grabbed the wheel, braced my knee, cruised to 60 MPH, and grabbed the battery. Took my aid out, switched the batteries, threw the sticker off and voila, back into my ear! I. AM. GOOD!

Anyway, we all have a song that stamped our lives, what’s yours? What song when you hear it or see it on TV makes you stop in your tracks, and your memories, dreams and ideas come pouring back to you.

Here is the song/video I GO BACK-KENNY CHESNEY Subtitled for you folks! :)

Alex